but things are meant to fall apart just as much as they are meant to be fixed.

At one point in my life, I looked so much within for answers that I became entirely without. This led me to the conclusion that there never was a question to ask to begin with. The meaning of life to me is simply to live, but not just to live, not just to survive, but to thrive. And what I mean by this is not in the way of greed, but moreso in the way of need.

When nobody else believes in you, you just have to believe in your own self. Denial can have no effect on you if you realize that no matter how many times you are denied, you still exist and will always have existed. A man may be able to be destroyed, but a concept cannot. So allow yourself to only be what you truly wish to be, not what others project onto you. Be free in that regard.

one should start to count their blessings at least as equally as they do their banes.

Everybody has a spark of good in them, but not everyone is willing to ignite it. Some would rather take another's spark away. My fire has been doused in that regard, but I am not out yet.

I've actually been doing horrible. A lot of personal stuff that I won't get into. I've been betrayed, hurt, used, and turned into just a rather disturbed person in general.

It feels as if I've been a prisoner so much my whole life that I am a prisoner of my own mind.

I can no longer contain the girl power in me.

I am sorry.

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