I was having such a good time composing music today only to realize I had to go to work and the usual depression kicks in. I don't wanna do this anymore. I really don't. I'm 30 years old and a fucking failure with no papers to my name; I feel sometimes like I'm gonna be stuck in this job for the rest of my life. Why try anyway? It's only a matter of time when a mistake comes back to haunt me even though I am not that mistake anymore. I don't get it anymore. I just don't get it. I wanna be free from my past, but I just can't... and I'm sitting here having to vent about it online cause therapists are about the only thing more useless than me.

It's honestly disappointing to me. I don't wanna be angry, but I am. I'm bitter at how hopeless it seems for me to be genuinely okay in life. I feel like I've only experienced a single week this whole year where I was high-on-life, the rest has felt forced mostly... My brain is so uncomfortable, I'm tired of my job, I wanna unexist most of the time. I dunno... I just want a soundproof chamber to scream in.

They don't care about that cringe thing you did years ago, and anybody who does is an even bigger loser than you are. You'll be ok.

Like actually forreal just made a beep sound with my mouth! How do I keep accidentally making these weird noises?

THAT'S IT!!! The LGBBQ have gone TOO FAR!!!!

This is MY AMERICAN FOOD!!!! Keep your soy-drenched hands OFF OF IT!!!!!!!

Figured it'd be good to give myself another avenue for having fun.

and I'm on the side of the actual artists.

We're humans; we don't rely on algorithms, we function on archaism!

And also...

post this image to ruin the day of an AI "artist"

AI "artists": "AI is useful for art because it makes it easier and faster to produce!"

Alan Watts:

In any kind of art, it is about the journey,

not the destination.

talk to someone outside of yourself.

Someone needs to make an edit of that The Dark Knight hospital scene with Joker except he's pushing a row of carts into a Walmart or some other shitty store and the detonator is replaced with a cart remote, and the cart pushing machine he is using stalls, which makes him mess around with the cart remote as a car crashes into the row of carts making the Joker jump.