Okay, guys. Just count on me not being consistent. I am just way too fucked-up right now. I feel like an entity lugging around a corpse most of the time anymore. I am waking up before I am ready to just to force food in my face and go someplace I don't wanna be for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week. I'm relying on unhealthy vices to feel some form of pleasure in a world that feels bleak to me about 95% of the time. I just feel hopeless, pathetic, unloved, unwanted. My head hurts, my heart is void, and I just can't hide it anymore. I'm unhappy. Truly unhappy. I have no papers to my name due to me being homeschooled, I don't have time to pursue my creativity, I honestly just wanna unexist most of the time. I'm tired of spending this existence just surviving and not thriving.