I usually have something thought-provoking for my frontpage post, but this time I don't have much to say. I'm genuinely sad this holiday season, even bitter if I'm being honest, despite that though I still have persistence in overcoming all of this; being good despite my evil nature. Currently though, I feel hopeless, but I'm still doing my best and won't beat myself up for it. I'm allowed to be sad and bitter right now, and I have every right to be. No longer pretending.